I turned 45 in February....celebrated with a couple parties, a stay at the casino and a nice long massage to help with my aching body from running. Something was missing though...Max. I think about him daily. I have a nice little reminder on my shoulder now, just below where he sits.
Max will for ever be with me...not just in my heart, but on my shoulder where my guardian angel should be.
Only a couple more weeks of my running club, then I have to have to continue on my own. The Susan G Komen 5k Race for the Cure is on April 22 (I think).....and that is what I have been training for. I need to just keep my routine and push myself. I hate how my hips, knees, shins & feet feel during running, but the endorphins that are running through me after, are amazing!
Yardwork has started this week...I have rebuilt a fire pit in the backyard and will put down some gravel around it, make a pathway to it and plant this weekend. Looking forward to being able to use the backyard this summer.
People have started to ask about the wedding, so if your reading...here's an answer for you. Trevor and I have decided to postpone the wedding. Not sure when it will happen, we just have to work through some important issues first. Losing Max in November sent me/us into a tailspin and we have to find our way out of it. All in time.
I know everything happens for a reason....and I truly do hate that saying now. I miss my/our little man so much. His scent, his soft skin and his beautiful eyes....the thought of never seeing him again or holding brings me to tears... I know he'll always be with me, looking after me. I just miss him so....
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