The house that Grant built...or is still hoping to build...

Well, the house plans are still moving along, just at a snails pace instead. A late payment at Home Depot has thrown my credit score into a tail spin....so Im just waiting for it to recover and then we can move forward. Scott, my contractor, is hanging in there with me. He has applied for all of the permits & we are just waiting on the approval of the septic plan. I am hoping to have a day off during the week, so I can go to the hardware store to look at fixtures and make some preliminary decisions. The store he uses is only open m-f....how weird is that?! Oh, well. My mind still races thinking about how to do things, colors to use, placement of furniture, etc. This home will really be my dream home since I will have been dreaming about it, vividly, for over a year!

Reality Check!

March has been a crazy month! Between the hospitalization of my ex-wife, her stay in Cardiac ICU and the death of my good friend Ryan's Dad on March 9th from a Pulmonary Embolism, I've been rethinking how I live my life.

Ryan's dad was 51, a Washington State Patrol Detective & a great guy. It always amazes me how the good guys are the ones to go first. I guess God needed him...so called him home. Well, 51....wow....Only 10 years older than me. The family had been in Vegas for a wedding and on the day Ryan was going home, his dad wasnt feeling well, so Ryan hung out with him until heading to the airport. Well, sometime while in flight, Mike was rushed to the hospital and died. Ryan got a call when he landed & in that short moment, his life was forever altered. Mike left behind his wife Tracy, Ryan & his brother. A rich & wonderful life, cut short.... The good part was that Mike & Tracy were so in love...lived every day to its fullest & enjoyed their friends & family.

My point is that I need to look at my life...am I happy? Happy with my choices in life....well, not really, I guess. I needed a reality check. So, I've been re-evaluating everything and I think Im ready for some changes. Nothing too drastic...well, YOU probably wont notice much, but I will. I am going to make an effort to Learn, Live, Laugh & Love...maybe not in that order....but will concentrate on doing a few things differently to make me happy. For too many years, I have done what other people thought was best for me, not what I thought was best. Well, with change comes growth. I guess its time to do things for me & if I screw up...well, I will learn. But I wont have any regrets, like I do now...that is what is important.

So...for all of you that are now scared....lol...dont be, that is my job! Change is good, change is healthy. Im ready for it and will embrace it no matter what.