Well, I decided to remove my last post. I have always used this blog to talk about my feelings, my raw feelings, but realize that the last post hurt a few people in the process, so decided to delete it.
So much for telling it like I feel. From now on, I'll keep personal feelings to myself.
Happy New Year
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Sorry its taken so long for me to get back to this...its been a whirl wind around here. A lot has happened since August.
Here's a brief overview
Max's 1st birthday was on September 26th, so we had a little get together at the cemetery and then dinner afterwards. I miss him so much, every day.
We spent about 9 days cleaning out my grandparents house and getting things moved to Spokane. In early November, Charlie arrived in Spokane.
Thanksgiving came & went and then came Alexis Rene' Saddler-Ogren! This little angel was born on December 23rd. She brought a 'new beginning' to our lives and big smiles all around. What a Christmas gift...who needs anything else!
The new year brought many new challenges in live and lots of busy things going on. I had been prepping since October for the SAN Oscar Night Gala which would take place on March 2nd. Chairing this event and being the IT, Marketing, Designer, setup, teardown, etc....was lots of work, but felt like I was in my element. I did have to take the day after off due to exhaustion...ugh.
In February, Kris & Carly announced they were taking a bit of a 'vacation' from seeing everyone. They needed the bonding time...I get that. So, we met up for a quick coffee and holding session before Trevor and I left on our cruise for my sister-in-law Sandra's 50th Birthday! Lots of fun was had by all!
I was good...and gave the kids (they arent kids anymore, Ive been informed) a break from bothering them...and waiting to see them and Alexis until my birthday (Feb 28th). Had a very nice dinner with Trevor, Kris, Carly & Alexis. Made my night! After dinner we went to nyne to see Eric Himan perform. I had been emailing him about performing for SAN, but it didnt work out. He proceeded to sing me happy birthday at the bar. Was kind of cool.
The weekend was busy with Oscar Gala prep and the event taking place on Sunday the 2nd. We had a major snow storm that day, but ended up having a great turn out. Not as much money was raised as I had hoped, but the event was great.
Lots of familiar faces and some new ones. I was the chairperson for the event so did some face time on tv the week prior and the day of the event as well as having to get on stage that evening. WAY out of my comfort zone, but Im proud of myself for doing it.
I have lots of ideas for next year, but first have to push ticket sales for the next event, Witches' Night Off', in May.
Looking forward to spring....spending time in the yard prepping it for next year. I have found that when they added my patios in the back they moved the dirt so the water flows to the house, not away from it. My garage is flooding. First step in the spring is to rent a tractor and make some sort of a culvert.
Well, back to work...lots to do.
Here's a brief overview
Max's 1st birthday was on September 26th, so we had a little get together at the cemetery and then dinner afterwards. I miss him so much, every day.
We spent about 9 days cleaning out my grandparents house and getting things moved to Spokane. In early November, Charlie arrived in Spokane.
Thanksgiving came & went and then came Alexis Rene' Saddler-Ogren! This little angel was born on December 23rd. She brought a 'new beginning' to our lives and big smiles all around. What a Christmas gift...who needs anything else!
The new year brought many new challenges in live and lots of busy things going on. I had been prepping since October for the SAN Oscar Night Gala which would take place on March 2nd. Chairing this event and being the IT, Marketing, Designer, setup, teardown, etc....was lots of work, but felt like I was in my element. I did have to take the day after off due to exhaustion...ugh.
In February, Kris & Carly announced they were taking a bit of a 'vacation' from seeing everyone. They needed the bonding time...I get that. So, we met up for a quick coffee and holding session before Trevor and I left on our cruise for my sister-in-law Sandra's 50th Birthday! Lots of fun was had by all!
I was good...and gave the kids (they arent kids anymore, Ive been informed) a break from bothering them...and waiting to see them and Alexis until my birthday (Feb 28th). Had a very nice dinner with Trevor, Kris, Carly & Alexis. Made my night! After dinner we went to nyne to see Eric Himan perform. I had been emailing him about performing for SAN, but it didnt work out. He proceeded to sing me happy birthday at the bar. Was kind of cool.
The weekend was busy with Oscar Gala prep and the event taking place on Sunday the 2nd. We had a major snow storm that day, but ended up having a great turn out. Not as much money was raised as I had hoped, but the event was great.
Lots of familiar faces and some new ones. I was the chairperson for the event so did some face time on tv the week prior and the day of the event as well as having to get on stage that evening. WAY out of my comfort zone, but Im proud of myself for doing it.
I have lots of ideas for next year, but first have to push ticket sales for the next event, Witches' Night Off', in May.
Looking forward to spring....spending time in the yard prepping it for next year. I have found that when they added my patios in the back they moved the dirt so the water flows to the house, not away from it. My garage is flooding. First step in the spring is to rent a tractor and make some sort of a culvert.
Well, back to work...lots to do.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
It's gonna be a GIRL!
Its been a busy couple months! Sorry I've not been posting for a while.
On July 31, 2013, my grandfather, Bert, passed away after a long 10 year battle with cancer. I was fortunate to be able to travel down the week prior and spend some time with him. I have lots of memories of him and my grandmother and am so glad that they are now together.
Last Thursday evening, August 8th, Kris and Carly hosted a 'Gender Announcement' party at Carly's parents house. Family and friends were in attendance along with a Face-Time call to Kris' mom and family in California.
Below is the link to the video of the 'announcement'.
https://docs.google.com/file/
It was a fun evening and so excited to be able to welcome this precious new life in late December.
On July 31, 2013, my grandfather, Bert, passed away after a long 10 year battle with cancer. I was fortunate to be able to travel down the week prior and spend some time with him. I have lots of memories of him and my grandmother and am so glad that they are now together.
Last Thursday evening, August 8th, Kris and Carly hosted a 'Gender Announcement' party at Carly's parents house. Family and friends were in attendance along with a Face-Time call to Kris' mom and family in California.
Below is the link to the video of the 'announcement'.
https://docs.google.com/file/
It was a fun evening and so excited to be able to welcome this precious new life in late December.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Life...ugh
Yesterday, March 26, Max would have been 6 months old. Wow, time flies...just too bad he's not here to celebrate. Its been very hard dealing with this tragedy. I have been crying for days...for months...with no end in sight. Life has taken some pretty big turns and I know in time, I'll get through them.
I turned 45 in February....celebrated with a couple parties, a stay at the casino and a nice long massage to help with my aching body from running. Something was missing though...Max. I think about him daily. I have a nice little reminder on my shoulder now, just below where he sits.
Max will for ever be with me...not just in my heart, but on my shoulder where my guardian angel should be.
Only a couple more weeks of my running club, then I have to have to continue on my own. The Susan G Komen 5k Race for the Cure is on April 22 (I think).....and that is what I have been training for. I need to just keep my routine and push myself. I hate how my hips, knees, shins & feet feel during running, but the endorphins that are running through me after, are amazing!
Yardwork has started this week...I have rebuilt a fire pit in the backyard and will put down some gravel around it, make a pathway to it and plant this weekend. Looking forward to being able to use the backyard this summer.
People have started to ask about the wedding, so if your reading...here's an answer for you. Trevor and I have decided to postpone the wedding. Not sure when it will happen, we just have to work through some important issues first. Losing Max in November sent me/us into a tailspin and we have to find our way out of it. All in time.
I know everything happens for a reason....and I truly do hate that saying now. I miss my/our little man so much. His scent, his soft skin and his beautiful eyes....the thought of never seeing him again or holding brings me to tears... I know he'll always be with me, looking after me. I just miss him so....
I turned 45 in February....celebrated with a couple parties, a stay at the casino and a nice long massage to help with my aching body from running. Something was missing though...Max. I think about him daily. I have a nice little reminder on my shoulder now, just below where he sits.
Max will for ever be with me...not just in my heart, but on my shoulder where my guardian angel should be.
Only a couple more weeks of my running club, then I have to have to continue on my own. The Susan G Komen 5k Race for the Cure is on April 22 (I think).....and that is what I have been training for. I need to just keep my routine and push myself. I hate how my hips, knees, shins & feet feel during running, but the endorphins that are running through me after, are amazing!
Yardwork has started this week...I have rebuilt a fire pit in the backyard and will put down some gravel around it, make a pathway to it and plant this weekend. Looking forward to being able to use the backyard this summer.
People have started to ask about the wedding, so if your reading...here's an answer for you. Trevor and I have decided to postpone the wedding. Not sure when it will happen, we just have to work through some important issues first. Losing Max in November sent me/us into a tailspin and we have to find our way out of it. All in time.
I know everything happens for a reason....and I truly do hate that saying now. I miss my/our little man so much. His scent, his soft skin and his beautiful eyes....the thought of never seeing him again or holding brings me to tears... I know he'll always be with me, looking after me. I just miss him so....
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Today is February 13th, and its been a long time since I have sat down to write. A lot has happened in the past few months. At my last writing, I was a new grandpa, so very proud. I am still so very proud....just a lot has happpened.
After five short weeks, Max became an angel. His time here on earth was very short, but he accomplished so much in such short a time. He will forever be in my heart and on my mind. Not a day goes by without me thinking of him and wishing he was here. My pain is so real....but compares nothing to the pain of Kris & Carly. I am in a helpless state....I have always tried to shelter Kris from pain & do anything to take it away, but this pain is his...I cant take it away.
Max is buried in an infant area of the cemetary, where you can keep up decorations all year round without the fear of them being taken down or mowed over. His little grave has a beautiful dinosaur headstone, along with a hand made wreath that we decorate for the season. Cold, stiff stuff animals surround him and a squashed down snow path makes way to the graveside...just showing how many visitors he gets. I know he's not there...but still go there to talk to him. He is in my every day life, knowing that he is my angel, watching over me.
The holidays were rough...one consolation was that we had the flue over Christmas, so didn't have to see anyone.
Just before Christmas, Trevor's company, Red Lion Hotels, re-org'd him out of a job. So, he's been on the job hunt.
Between this, Max, the holidays and the prospect of turning 45 later in the month, my emotions have been high and trying to reevaluate life in general. I feel like a lost soul lately, so something needs to change.
I have taken up running, after about 25 years. Hasnt been too great on my ankles & shins, but my spirits are higher than they have been in a long time. Im really enjoying the group I run with and how everyone is so very supportive.
This spring should be busy...lots going on. Once the snow goes away & the ground thaw's, I need to put in a fence around the back year, to keep the dogs in. Stoli got really sick last fall from eating deer poop...so we are going to take care of that one! Hopefully this gives me a better area to landscape also....so it doesnt seem so ominous. I am planning on doing some sprinklers in both the front and back and will be planting some seedling christmas trees in the front. I will have plenty to do with Mom's front & back yard too...
Well, back to work....
After five short weeks, Max became an angel. His time here on earth was very short, but he accomplished so much in such short a time. He will forever be in my heart and on my mind. Not a day goes by without me thinking of him and wishing he was here. My pain is so real....but compares nothing to the pain of Kris & Carly. I am in a helpless state....I have always tried to shelter Kris from pain & do anything to take it away, but this pain is his...I cant take it away.
Max is buried in an infant area of the cemetary, where you can keep up decorations all year round without the fear of them being taken down or mowed over. His little grave has a beautiful dinosaur headstone, along with a hand made wreath that we decorate for the season. Cold, stiff stuff animals surround him and a squashed down snow path makes way to the graveside...just showing how many visitors he gets. I know he's not there...but still go there to talk to him. He is in my every day life, knowing that he is my angel, watching over me.
The holidays were rough...one consolation was that we had the flue over Christmas, so didn't have to see anyone.
Just before Christmas, Trevor's company, Red Lion Hotels, re-org'd him out of a job. So, he's been on the job hunt.
Between this, Max, the holidays and the prospect of turning 45 later in the month, my emotions have been high and trying to reevaluate life in general. I feel like a lost soul lately, so something needs to change.
I have taken up running, after about 25 years. Hasnt been too great on my ankles & shins, but my spirits are higher than they have been in a long time. Im really enjoying the group I run with and how everyone is so very supportive.
This spring should be busy...lots going on. Once the snow goes away & the ground thaw's, I need to put in a fence around the back year, to keep the dogs in. Stoli got really sick last fall from eating deer poop...so we are going to take care of that one! Hopefully this gives me a better area to landscape also....so it doesnt seem so ominous. I am planning on doing some sprinklers in both the front and back and will be planting some seedling christmas trees in the front. I will have plenty to do with Mom's front & back yard too...
Well, back to work....
Monday, October 8, 2012
Busy, Busy in Spokane
WOW! I can't believe its October! A lot has happened in the past few months. Im going to start with the most exciting news first.... Maxwell Sterling Saddler-Ogren was born on September 26, 2012, at 2:48am. Max weighed 6lbs 6oz & was 19.25" long, he was also 4 weeks early.
Max has been in the NICU since birth due to some digestive issues along with temperature regulation. Max is growing stronger and stronger each day. I'm sure he'll become my favorite blogging subject.
Kris has already started taking tons of pics of Max....this last one is one of my favorites.
As for anything else going on...well, Mom's house is about done...just some finishing touches left.
A couple weeks ago, Trevor and I had an Engagement photo shoot. Some of the work is below.
Enough for now....
Max has been in the NICU since birth due to some digestive issues along with temperature regulation. Max is growing stronger and stronger each day. I'm sure he'll become my favorite blogging subject.
As for anything else going on...well, Mom's house is about done...just some finishing touches left.
A couple weeks ago, Trevor and I had an Engagement photo shoot. Some of the work is below.
Enough for now....
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Summer 2012 update
July 12, 2012
My posts seem to be staying pretty far apart. Not sure why, other than its been busy. So, here's an update:
Mom's house is almost done. Should be complete within the month. Next week they install flooring, countertops and finish up the siding also. This week, they installed the interior trim and did some yard cleanup. I will posts pics shortly.
Kris & Carly are doing well. Little baby Ogren is due in October and is keeping Carly up at night. He doesnt like to sleep more than a few hours at a time, so plays trampoline on mommy in-between. Carly is a trooper. They have taken a few days away to California before Carly gets much bigger. I keep finding things to buy for the baby....diapers, diapers, diapers and some cute stuff too. We are working on having a baby shower the week Mom, Cheryl, Sandra & Bob are here, moving some of Mom's stuff up. Should be a busy week!
Trevor & I continue to do the week on/week off between houses. Seem that our 'weeks' become longer here & there. Kelly continues to live upstairs at the Royal house, so sometimes its just easier to be in a separate space, so we stay at Trevors longer. I picked up a bunch of boxes from Trevor's sister yesterday in hopes of trying to consolidate for an upcoming move. We'll see how easy that is. We will be having a LARGE garage sale in the near future, so will post that here too.
Work is good. I dont do as much traveling in this position, but I am having fun managing a couple configurations of the workflow management software I work with.
Trevor's 40th is coming up in September, so am working on a few surprises for him...all in time =)
We have set a date for a June 2013 wedding....more details to come!
Well, time to get moving & get home...have a concert in the park tonight that we are going to try to attend unless we die of heatstroke.
-g
My posts seem to be staying pretty far apart. Not sure why, other than its been busy. So, here's an update:
Mom's house is almost done. Should be complete within the month. Next week they install flooring, countertops and finish up the siding also. This week, they installed the interior trim and did some yard cleanup. I will posts pics shortly.
Kris & Carly are doing well. Little baby Ogren is due in October and is keeping Carly up at night. He doesnt like to sleep more than a few hours at a time, so plays trampoline on mommy in-between. Carly is a trooper. They have taken a few days away to California before Carly gets much bigger. I keep finding things to buy for the baby....diapers, diapers, diapers and some cute stuff too. We are working on having a baby shower the week Mom, Cheryl, Sandra & Bob are here, moving some of Mom's stuff up. Should be a busy week!
Trevor & I continue to do the week on/week off between houses. Seem that our 'weeks' become longer here & there. Kelly continues to live upstairs at the Royal house, so sometimes its just easier to be in a separate space, so we stay at Trevors longer. I picked up a bunch of boxes from Trevor's sister yesterday in hopes of trying to consolidate for an upcoming move. We'll see how easy that is. We will be having a LARGE garage sale in the near future, so will post that here too.
Work is good. I dont do as much traveling in this position, but I am having fun managing a couple configurations of the workflow management software I work with.
Trevor's 40th is coming up in September, so am working on a few surprises for him...all in time =)
We have set a date for a June 2013 wedding....more details to come!
Well, time to get moving & get home...have a concert in the park tonight that we are going to try to attend unless we die of heatstroke.
-g
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